Let me ask you this:
Do you think you are smart, clever, talented and/or intelligent?
I've been told from a few former teachers I'm a very clever boy. I could be anything I want. Maybe that was a bad idea to tell me something like this. Through that, I always think that I know that I could do better if I wanted to but at that moment I'm was to lazy.
Every time when I ask myself this question, I think back when my teachers stood before me, handed me my test results over and told me I could do better and in the next test I did without any effort.
This showed me, that I have the "abillity" to learn without doing anything but just sitting there and listen. I never learned at home. I barely did my homework. I never knew when we where going to write a test. But in the end, I managed to get a good grade, or at least, not a bad grade.
This let me think Im clever...
But school is long ago. I didnt wrote tests for a long time. I didnt listen to teachers that explain new things to me for a long time. I didnt pratice any of the old stuff I learned once. Instead i played computer games or I've been just lazy and wasted my time.
How can I still say that Im intelligent, that I still have this "abillity" to learn anything I want, without any proof?
...I dont want to be stupid so Im just going to believe that im still as talented as in the past. For the well-being of my conscience.
(sorry for that, but sometimes I have the urge to write about things like this to get it out of my mind. Next time it will be something more.... stupid ^^ )